I miss my baby. Breaks my heart that I can’t see him :(

Things were finally starting to look up. I’ve been feeling a lot happier, I start my new job next week and the boyfriend and I have never been better. There were some debt issues that arose unexpectedly, but apart from that everything was looking positive. Then something happened last night that we never saw coming. People we loved so dearly, who ment the world to us, quickly became people we didn’t recognise anymore. Their words and gestures, something only out of a nightmare, as our whole world came tumbling down. Such hurtful, vicious things were said, that I dont think we will ever forget. Being told that you dont love the one person who means more to you then anything, more to you then your own life, by someone who obviously has no idea, was probably the worst of it and couldn’t have broken me more. To see a side of people that you never knew existed, that you never even knew was possible, is to horrible to even think about. Mixed in with never, ever being good enough. However, some aspects of last night feel terribly familiar, which makes it even more heartbreaking. All in all, without my boyfriend i’d be totally lost. Him, and some amazing friends are the only things that are keeping me going anymore. Just when everything was finally getting back on track, it all got ripped away, right from under us….